sickly me

Mother texted me today,
............father is sick,
.....................brother has stomach upset again since last Friday. He has been always like that. I once brought him at the doctor's, they asked me to down pay 30k,where shall I get that kind of amount? Actually,they hypothesized that it could be a kidney problem or an appendicitis. So, to be diagnosed well, they will find it out . But they asked me for that kind of amount. I admit , I don't have any savings at all. My parents have none , too. Well, honestly, I am not belong to a well -off family. I am just ordinary.I am trying my best as an elder sister but I can't make it all. I wanted to send my siblings in college like me,,But I can't . It so hard for me. You know when the rundown life hits us. It's so confusing. What should I do,, I am running out of savings now. You'll ask me why?It is because, I too has a certain kind of illness. I don't like to open this now, but I can't help it anymore.
....I am sick ,too.. dju see???I am so sickly..